Saturday, January 24, 2009

No Whining

There's a whole lot going on right now, and I feel like I should offer my thanks to God for His provision over our lives.

I'm thankful for the fact that Jeremy got a job in Hall County before the worst economic recession we have seen in years. I am terrified by reports of teachers being cut or shifted to other schools, and I am scared for anyone trying to get a job as an outside hire at a school. Times are tough. God is good to us.

It is so nice to have Jeremy around. He brings me treats from the 7th grade, gives me money for the drink/snack machine when I run out, and he even watched my kids a couple of times when he was on break and I felt the general pregnancy ick. It is really nice to work with my hubby all day. :)

I am thankful for the fact that we are building a house. We wanted a house for years, but tried very hard to be patient and wait. We prayed and believed that if our condo sold it would be a sign to move on. We are using a great house plan that we are in love with - and we are building it for less than we could have imagined a few years ago. I can't wait to snuggle up in front of my very own fireplace with a book. (I realize it will probably be May when this event occurs, but I'm still going to do it.) I can't wait to soak in my very own bathtub. I can't wait to park my car in a GARAGE! I have never had a garage before!!

I never expected to live with my in-laws for six months or so, but we have adjusted well to our temporary home. Life is pretty busy, and yet we find so many great indolent and blissful moments. Jeremy's family is fun-loving and funny - we share many laughs that I know he and I will remember when we are older. We are going to enjoy our rest now - we realize these moments may be fleeting in the future. :)

I am thankful for this little life growing inside of me. I can't wait to find out who exactly this wonderful little baby is. Jeremy and I are beyond excited to start this new chapter of our lives. I see these little pictures of my baby and get so nervous with anticipation. I've only had a few days of sickness (I did get a stomach virus and a nasty cold at the same time at the very beginning of my pregnancy - ugh!), and I am starting to feel like my peppy old self again. I can't wait to find out Baby Farr's gender, give him/her a NAME (Jeremy, are you reading this? Kobe doesn't cut it), and start planning a nursery in our new home.

Life is exciting. I can't complain.

To quote my beloved Caedmon's Call:

"Though I questioned the sky, now I see why/ I had to walk the rocks to see the mountain view/ Looking back, I see the lead of love."

Sunday, January 18, 2009

My Confession

I really do not like Oprah. At all. I find her crass and annoying. She yells/sings everything she says. I find this beyond irritating.

Don't believe me? Watch an ad for her show.

"We have Toooooooooom HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANKS is on the shoooooooooooooooooooow!! I am sssssssssoooooooooooooo exciiiiiiiiiiiiiited!"

Today, the ad was about her show concerning Barack Obama's inauguration:

"Helloooooooooo Mr. Preeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesideeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeent!"

The ads alone make me want to throw things at the television...and watching her show makes me just want to throw more things at it. Sometimes, Oprah actually talks about relevant things. Most of the time she promotes her asinine, new-agey, "you should love yourself above anyone else" agenda.

I realize that I am in the minority here, but I just thought I would confess that Oprah annoys me. I realize that I may be the only person who feels this way, but I thought I should make my feelings known to the blogiverse.

I feel better now. :)

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Thoughts on One Very Special Person

I'm going to be a Mama.

I don't deserve this blessing. I really don't. I cannot think of anything I've done to deserve such a blessing from God. I have been so unfaithful in so many ways, and He continues to give me what I don't deserve despite my depravity. God is good and I am always shockingly amazed at His goodness. I don't know why it always surprises me. We all fall short, and yet He always supports us when we fall - through good and bad.

I have so many prayers at this point. The first ones are for a healthy baby - I'm not too choosy about the "girl" or "boy" part. I think about the advantages of both and smile.

I pray that I can be a good Mother. I really want to be a good mother. I want my child to love God first and foremost, and to find His beauty and grace through the haze and ugliness this world often offers. I want my child to be unselfish and caring. I want my child to know how wonderful his/her grandparents and great-grandparents are. I want my child to be disciplined. I don't want a spoiled rotten child - but I realize this might take a great amount of work. I'm going to have to start reading a bunch of books and praying a whole lot now. I'm also going to talk a lot to my mother, who raised me to think past myself. I was not spoiled by her, which makes me more and more thankful for her every day of my life.

We had a big scare the first few weeks of pregnancy. I started spotting and went to the doctor. The ultrasound didn't show a baby, and it took me several minutes for the reality to sink in that my body might have developed a pregnancy with no baby. In a week we were fortunate enough to realize that our dates were way off and that our baby was fine. That week was one of the longest and most difficult of my life.

Baby Farr looks good and is measuring right on track. A week ago, an ultrasound showed a feisty little thing that turned flips and waved its little limbs. I can't wait to find out the gender. I can't wait to meet this one very special person that I have prayed so hard for.

Doesn't the baby look like Jeremy already?? :) He's going to be such a great Daddy.

...and I'm going to be a Mama. I can't believe it. I still can't believe it.

Friday, January 2, 2009

Slackin' Around

Jeremy and I are living with his parents while we build a new house.

We decided to do this after we found a house we liked and made a bid on it. The builder rejected our bid (because we were being cheapskates and were looking for a bargain). Then, we got to thinking - we have free land that was given to us by his grandparents. Why not build THIS house on our own land?

So, after some talking and looking around, we are officially building our own place. It is a cheaper adventure, but an adventure nonetheless.

So, while we are homeless, we are taking advantage of being the ultimate slackers.

I can't say that it is totally our fault. Jeremy's mother has a total servant's heart and wants to make us feel as comfortable and welcome as we can. She wants to feed us, make sure we are warm and comfortable, and make sure we focus on building our house and on school. Then, of course there is the laundry - we come home and our laundry is done for us (even after I insisted we could do our own). She even gets our mail from the mailbox and places it in a little basket for us.

Jeremy and I don't have to lift a finger for anything. Food, toilet paper, and clean clothes are right at our fingertips. I have spent this past Christmas vacation being pampered and petted. I'm not going to lie. It's been nice having a mama take care of me again.

There are definite perks that come with living with in the Farr House. Apart from unlimited toilet paper, there is a fridge stocked with every drink imaginable. I have tried stay away from certain things when I'm so used to drinking water, but the Canada Dry and apple juice does call my name from time to time.

So, before school begins, Jeremy and I will enjoy this last little slacker stage of our lives. 2009 brings building, a brand new house to take care of, and all kinds of responsibilities in our personal and professional lives. We are very excited!

Now, where did Jeremy's mom put my pajamas...?